Body Positivity Movement

I am joining the body positivity movement. I am optimistic that I can embrace the positivity. I am not getting any younger or thinner and starving myself is out of the question. I know very little about body positivity. I have been hating my body for pretty much all my life but mostly since I was about 25, so that is almost 20 years of hating my body and putting all myself worth into how flat my stomach is or is not, which it is not flat by any means. I have an arm load of reasons I am not getting skinny and why my muffin top is not shrinking. I loath my muffin top and now I am adding my upper arms to what I hate about my body. Okay, back fat too, I hate that as well, but see it less often since  it is behind me. See where this is going?

Here is my arm load of reasons (some may call excuses) why I am not getting skinny

  1. hyperthyroid
  2. menopause at 3o
  3. whacked out hormones
  4. IBS diet
  5. diets don’t work, I have done lots ( WW, clean eating, no carbs, reduced carbs, paleo, LA weight loss and the list continues, I have lost and gained the same 15 lbs I don’t know what many times)
  6. I have overcome too much shit in my life to never have ice-cream and birthday cake again
  7. I have many habits of “skinny” eaters and I still have a muffin top

 

I am sure there are a few more, if I want to spend the brain power thinking about them and no …..one of the reasons is not because I am lazy, unhealthy, unmotivated and overweight and making excuses.

Enter….. body positivity which to my understanding will help me blast these some of these myths and misconceptions  and once and for all I will love my body and appreciate all the does for me. Let the journey begin.

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Younger Self

My oldest son turns 16 years old tomorrow. Milestones, like this one get you thinking about how much time has gone by and of course how quickly times goes by. When Nick was born I fell head over heels in love. Literally! Who knew what joy a little version of yourself, offspring could be. I don’t think my mother loved me like that but who knows. I am glad I loved like that.

Looking through some photos of him as a baby I came across this one.

(no make up, no filters, smiling 🙂 , in love)

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I was a bit sad to see a spark in my eye that I didn’t see in a recent selfie I had taken of myself.

15 years plus a few months later……

(Recent Selfie-no make up Monday, no filters, no smile )

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At first, I felt sad about that missing spark I perceived. Ultimately, I know I am really just being hard on myself. Then, I wondered, what would I tell this younger version of myself today and so I wrote..

You knew the moment you found out you were pregnant what a special love you had and the joy that followed was more than you imagined. While you already knew life wasn’t all rainbows and pink cotton candy. You knew the birth of a child, your child was a new beginning, a new start. An opportunity, to love and experience love, a complete unconditional love. In the moments, right after birth, you knew it wasn’t just about you anymore. Your child first and your were second and that was perfectly okay. Most things you worried about before the birth, were not nearly as important. What a relief that was. A fresh breeze. A state of happiness. Your child’s happiness, well being and upbringing was in the forefront. Your mission was to raise a child that knew he was loved and cared for, no matter what. Something, you didn’t feel you had. Your mission was to raise a child that would have no fear showing affection, crawling into bed with you, never would he be afraid or doubt your love. Your child would have know a loving, kind mother. A mother who’s  eyes brightened when you walked in the room and wouldn’t hesitate to scoop you up in open welcoming arms.

You never knew that a couple years later you would be in the fight of your life. That the shock of such news would shake you to your very core. You didn’t know that your children would be the ones that gave you purpose to rise every morning. You had a mission! Your children needed you.

Shaken to the core you were. You had no idea the long term effects socially, emotionally and physically. But you fought, fought, fought and continue to fight! Fall down seven times, get up eight.

While some of your carefree innocence and spark faded with your fight, your love for your children only grew, your life adventures multiplied, you pushed through fear after fear and you learned to be truly grateful, less self-fish and have compassion and kindness for others. The mission you set for motherhood never faulted, didn’t fail. The gratitude you have for each day with your children  makes your heart overflow. Your relationship with God and faith is solid.

Your spark maybe more cautious and more mature with riding the waves of life but I’m proud of you. Maturity, isn’t all the bad. Don’t ever let anyone take away from you your struggles, your victories, for they know not the shoes you wore. Be grateful for those who shared the road. Continue to be grateful and celebrate all occasions in style.  Continue with your Mom mission you are doing a great job!

 

Hidden Talents….Man, they are hiding really good.

Do you ever wish you could do somethings just a bit better? I understand that none can be really good at everything but just a little better at somethings would be helpful. Are you following me?

Here are some examples….

I wish I was better at make-up application. Okay, I wish I could do it like the pros. Why can’t I get that dewy, I look 10 years younger look?

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I wish I was better at cooking.  I can cook and it taste good but I really don’t like it. Maybe I should rephrase. I wish I enjoyed cooking. I wonder what it is like to actually enjoy the cooking process. How wonderful would it be to get home from work and be excited about cooking a meal? Actually excited about it, instead of dread and hiding from the kitchen.

I wish I could decorate an amazing cupcake. I don’t need to be able to do the whole cake just one little amazing cupcake.

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Fashion. I have in my head what I want to look like I just have no idea how to do it. I mean I really have no idea. Zero, zip, none.

Painting. I envy people that can paint. Not so much draw but dip the brush and go to town on the canvas. People are incredible who have  this talent.

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Sing. I can sing and if I train my voice on a constant basis I can sound pretty good but someone always sound better, has more talent. God I hate those people.

Sewing. Again people that can sew are amazing. Make a quilt or sew a dress and I am in awe. I have made a few things in my day,  curtains and one skirt. I can hem pants, most times.

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Sure  I have talents, well….maybe not, definitely not around the arts. Honestly, what happened? For goodness sakes people put your children in some art classes.

 

As seen on Pinterest

I am starting a new series called As seen on Pinterest. You know how it is. We spend a few hours on Pinterest pinning all these great wonderful ideas that we are never going to do, make, use, create.  Sure we have great intentions. I know I do. But very few projects, meals etc.. do I actually do. So here is my chance to Do

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Have you seen this one and thought “so cheap” and “so easy”  but  yet all  your earring are still all over your make up table and night end table. That was me until TODAY!

Found these two ice cube trays with tops! for $1.50 at the grocery store.

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It took all of 10 minutes to wash these out and put my jewellery in.

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The only question I have is why didn’t I do this much sooner?

March Goals….In like a Lion out Like a Lamb

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Welcome March

I am so happy you have arrived.

March is like the turning point to a miserable Winter and it brings you hope that Winter will end and Spring will arrive. Spring might not arrive until June but it will arrive. In 8 days we welcome Daylight Savings and we will leap forward an hour to more sunshine and longer days. Bring it on

March Goals

1. Change up winter decor to spring/easter Yes

2. Get more walks outside No, the weather has just been to miserable

3. Plant lavender seeds No, I still have not done this

4. Clean out fridge ( did i just commit to that UGGG) sort of but it needs a really good clean

5. Exercise while watching Bold and the Beautiful nope

6. Clean out mail basket ( another task I avoid) nope, didn’t do this either

7. Get pedicure nope, but still in desperate need

8. Have a great Spring Break YES!!! This did happen 3 great nights at the beach

9. Renos, renos, and renos Yes, and this is what has been taking up all my time this month, so I will give myself a break for not accomplishing many of my goals.  

10. Do a 5 minute closet purge.

February Goal Recap

I have 15 modules in each of my courses. I hope to complete 5 of the modules by the end of February. I have decided to not continue with this course but will proceed with another master degree instead.
Add an additional protein each day to my diet. I did improve in this and would say accomplished
Increase my steps to 7000 2 days per week. Yes!
Host a birthday celebration for my husbands birthday. check
Valentine’s Gifts for Hubs and my kiddos check
Buy 2-3 pairs of new pants ( pant shopping is not a great experience for me and I really need some new ones) check but carry forward to March
Re-arrange a few items in my kitchen cupboards. check
Plant some some new seeds my Let Love Grow Project seems to have failed. check
Go to yoga Yes!
Get a pedicure, it’s winter but it is so long over due. No 😦 The weather has been horrible, terrible, very bad weather.

February Goals

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I never thought before to make small monthly goals. This might be a great solution to my procrastination. Since this is my first monthly goal list I will try to keep it simple and manageable.

  1. I have 15 modules in each of my courses. I hope to complete 5 of the modules by the end of February. I have decided to not continue with this course but will proceed with another master degree instead.
  2. Add an additional protein each day to my diet.  I did improve in this and would say accomplished
  3. Increase my steps to 7000 2 days per week.  Yes! 
  4. Host a birthday celebration for my husbands birthday. check
  5. Valentine’s Gifts for Hubs and my kiddos check
  6. Buy 2-3 pairs of new pants ( pant shopping is not a great experience for me and I really need some new ones) check but carry forward to March 
  7. Re-arrange a few items in my kitchen cupboards. check
  8. Plant some some new seeds my Let Love Grow Project seems to have failed. check
  9. Go to yoga Yes!
  10. Get a pedicure, it’s winter but it is so long over due. No 😦 The weather has been horrible, terrible, very bad weather. 

Alright, here we go February.